I descend down this mountain into the cursed woods.Never looking back, my feet become cut and bruised.The beauty of this land still takes my breath away.An old, withered man reflects upon his life.His face, buried within his hands.Forever in mourning.I continue my journey.Voices in the wind discourage me.But Im old, and my body must become one.One with the forest.I am pulled into these woods with a violent grace.A young man with goat-like features takes my hand.Im almost too weak to walk as he begins to drag me into the trees.I look back at my feet as they become dirt.My legs slowly sink into this ground.And my arms become deeply rooted into the earth.And the beauty of this land still takes my breath away.Still takes my breath away.Walk with me to the edge of earth.I descend down this mountain into the cursed woods.Never looking back, my feet become cut and bruised.The beauty of this land still takes my breath away.An old, withered man reflects upon his life.His face, buried within his hands.
Forever in mourning.Impulledinto these woods with a violent grace.
Take my hand, and walk with me to the edge of earth.
With a violent grace, take me away….far far from here. Take everything i know and replace it with nothing.what am i looking for?Searching always searching.
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This place feels so surreal. Am I alive? Alive? Am I Alive? Or am i just drowning again? Her perfume fills the room but will it die? Die? Will this die?
I never been the one to hold something for so long. As you dig in my soul… My mind and my heart. The missing memories scattered on the floor, looking for a place to go. It must belong somewhere. It must have some sort of grasp on me. It gets clearer… I need to fill your lungs. Don’t let this light go out. We can’t let this take us. It won’t be long. I’ve seen this place before.
I’ve been here before. But why do I not know my way. And for you I’d do anything… Just let me be your world…I wont give up. This is not where i stop.The truth it lies and there is faith, behind your eyes. I can’t see what lies beneath the words. Where have I been? Between what rests in my soul and what’s scarred on my heart. And I told you once, and I’ll tell you again.
Secrets are kept, because keeping what you have is all we have left….And pretend that what is known does not exist. And you will find a light that shined so long ago, I do not exist. I am just a memory you dreamt about a long time ago. I am a shadow, haunting your dreams. Pretend that everything you know, does not exist. Sinking always sinking. Save me from myself.
Im starting to scare myself. Im not who i was yesterday. Please drown me so i wont have to feel this way. Once im gone it will be all done. Make everything go away. Please take it. Show me grace. Make it all go away.
Pray for the ones you love. The sun runs from the sky. Beg for your life, Pray for the ones you love. Black out the sun. We’ll block out your eyes. Pray for daylight, Your time has come. This is the get off. I can’t give up now. Oh faithful, I’m amazed to find you look that way. Oh faithful, put away pills come waste away with me. It’s all in your head. If you see it, just close those blue eyes like you mean it.
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Look to the stars. They Hold all the answers. They carry with them the secrets your wanting to know. Cloudy nights and stormy weather bring them out the most. When everything is crashing down, when everything is not ok, Look towards the stars, they will get you through. How do you convince yourself to open your thoughts, your mind, your emotions? How do you reveal the feelings left inside when its not ok. Its still all the same. Its not the end just the beginning of something new. With secrets hidden deep inside, all i want you to do is to ask me. Ask me questions and ill reveal everything. I cant reveal them on my own, i need your help to make it through it all. Take away all the feelings, and lay them on the table. Lets sort them one by one. Togather. All i ever wanted was to be questioned, to pour this bottle out on the ground, to let the ground soak in the blood drennched thoughts. Quietly and openly i would tell you anything you wanted to know.
Stay for tonight.If you want to.I can show you.What my dreams are made of,
as I’m dreaming of your face.I’ve been away for a long time.Such a long time.
And I miss you there.I can’t imagine being anywhere else.I can’t imagine being anywhere else but here.How the hell did you ever pick me?Honestly, I could sing you a song.But I don’t think words can express your beauty.It’s singing to me.How the hell did we end up like this?You bring out the beast in me.I fell in love from the moment we kissed.Since then we’ve been history. They say that love is forever.Your forever is all that I need. Please stay as long as you need. Can’t promise that things won’t be broken. But I swear that I will never leave. Please stay forever with me. It goes to show, I hope that you know that you are. What my dreams are made of. Can’t fall asleep, can’t fall asleep. I lay in my bed awake, in my bed awake at night. As I dream of you. I’ll fall in love, you’ll fall in love. It could mean everything, everything to me. I can’t imagine being anywhere else. The way that we are. It’s the reason I stay. As long as you’re here with me. I know we’ll be Ok. The way that we are. It’s the reason I stay. . I know I’ll be Ok.
I hate the way that this feels. The taste. Its nothing new. Your words they overtake me here I am I’m yours. I feel it deep in my skin. Your grace is piousness. Your eyes they focus in on mine. Hold me close were sinking fast. When all we know is falling. Ill save something for you. You, who are all alone. When everything is beautiful. When everything’s ok. Or even if its not ok ill say.Its all for you. How can I convince myself when .I haven’t been myself in a long time.Theres blood on my hands. The killers not my enemy. Its all for the sake of love. there’s blood on my hands. I can feel it in my fingertips. I can taste this in the air. I know somehow there is something new. I see it so clearly. I can feel your hand on my fingertips.I see it oh so clear. I know its for you. I see so clear. Its all for you, no one can ever take it away. I havent seen a reason to react, because im liking where im at. Oh no no no.
Dreams torn to pieces, broken like glass. Hope faded away, withered like leaves. Not knowing is blessing, ignorance the only protection. Nothing is numbing my pain. The fragments of my faith. Became the blade in my hand.
Just darkness my eyes see. Pushed me to the end of all deadends. A curse. I cannot lie to myself. Cannot silence thoses hearts. Fear is the tool conformity our medicine. How can I smile as this age dies, like everybody else. Dancing around the fire, that burns this world. Cannot bend down, I would just break. I hate myself for playing their game. If it only wasn’t for this certainty in me. Looking through a mirror, waiting for it to shatter. Guilt feels so terrorifying when you cant fix this mess. All we can do is wait for our time to come. While others stand and watch, some disappear.
Their blank eyes stare into another dream.Disgraceful figures stumble through the mists. Sons of their nations, lost generations. A tragedy beyond imagination. Burnt by the sun, drowned in the rain. Buried alive in this cold, scorched earth. No glory left to find. They all have met their demons. They all have stopped to cry. We’re dying for no reason. The day they marched into this abyss. Confidence and fear affended us. And flowers blazoned our doom. We lost our dreams. These withered hearts are waiting for the end.
Those who return, will never leave this hell again. A merciless horizon does not promise any hope. Father versus father. Brother against brother. A tomb for all humanity. They all have met their demons. They all have stopped to cry. We’re dying for no reason.
Reborn into a new world. Awoken from dark eras. Ruins of an insane dream still cast their shadows. And demons from the past still walk among us. An age that bore no heroes. No answers to the few who raised their questions.
Just like a poison, silence killed the truth. A quest for resistance. You’re searching for an easy truth. But you betrayed them, they could not trust you. As you marched in lines and circles. As you held your flags up high. They had nowhere to run to. Your heroes, they could not dare to speak to you. But the courage you’re reclaiming, it died a bitter death with them.
No one here and no one there, no one heard them calling. Not you. Not anyone.
